there's no harm in hoping.

and i really do believe that. why wouldn't you want to stay with the one you love for well, ever? why shouldn't we hope & think that maybe, this is it. why should we feel ashamed for thinking we don't want to love anyone else? i suppose we've all been so bruised and suffocated and down right beaten by past loves or half-lovers that we forget that this simple, calm beauty still exists. it is still an option. at least in my book.

they say i have potential. they say i have a lot to do in this life. i couldn't agree more but why can't i do it all -- with someone by my side? isn't this what life is about? perhaps i missed a memo somewhere down the road but what's wrong with throwing your heart into everything? finding that balance between work and school and family and friends and relationships and spirituality. between responsibilities, urgencies, deadlines, downtime, hobbies, etc. why not completely indulge in all of these things, all at once until we are all so completely exhausted we actually feel something?

it is still an option. at least in my book.