transparency.

i should def. be working on this essay for my californian history class but fuck it. i have something to say.

PEOPLE ARE SO TRANSPARENT. like, i see right through most of you. i'm so happy God blessed me with the gift of intuition. it's so easy for me to seperate real from fake. it's funny. just even thinking about the term "two-faced". wouldn't being "two-faced" imply that it's WAY easier for someone to point you out than just some other person on the street? i mean, you have two faces! how can that be hidden? that was just one thing i never did. for as long as i can remember. i was never two-faced with people. if i don't like you, you are VERY aware of the fact that i don't like you. & if i love you: I WILL NEVER LET YOU FORGET. that's just how i am. & it upsets me that there are certain people in this world (that i have to interact with) that are this way. people who say sweet things to me & feed me "ice cream" to do nothing more than advance themselves or their situation. i've never been that manipulative in that sort of way. sure i know how to be a complete & total bitch & use people like pawns on chess board. & sure, i've done it. but never in this exact manner.

the point is: i know what most of you are doing. AND I DON'T TRUST YOU. & nothing you do or say is going to stop me from reaching my goals, or feeling GOOD about myself, or becoming who i'm destined to become.

p.s. - sorry this isn't my most concise blog entry.