Eddie.

run quick!
they're behind us
they didn't think we'd ever make it
this close to safety
in one piece

there was a spark inside of you i could not find in myself. you were no soft candle, you were a firework. you were filled with color & sound. the more i think about it, the more it hurts. i guess that's why i've pushed your death to the back of my mind. there are so many things i wish i could have told you before you escaped your shell. you were beautiful. it's hard for me to piece together your features when i close my eyes. the picture in the hallway of my home is not how i remember you. all i can see if your hair. those big, black chunky curls. you were beautiful. you were insanely intelligent. you made me laugh. above all else, i was in love with you.

you changed me. since the sunset came, i made a vow to myself that if i ever felt for someone the way i felt about you -- i would tell them & not waste a second in doing so.

i miss you.
i wish you were here.

happy birthday, love.