spend the rest of my life walking on fucking eggshells. not only is it a stupid way to live your life but i get this terrible image of me literally walking on eggshells & i look nothing short of an idiot. so on that note, i think it's time to seize this crap by the horns & just do it. cliche after cliche but nonetheless true. i can do anything & i intend on doing everything. twice. i stopped writing for a while because i thought no one was listening (reading, really) but God forbid i stop doing the one thing i am good at (& above all this, enjoy) because i have no avid following.
fuck thattt.
writing has given me a sense of confidence i never, thought existed within me. it's given me my voice. i also believe this is why i do not enjoy television or movies. most of the characters created for film today do not thrill me & i have created way more fascinating people, places & stories within the inches of my mind.
i feel sort of immature for my age but blessed at the same time. while everyone else is running around trying desperately to find reality in paychecks, i've created the most vivid image of the world -- the way i'd like to see it.
go get some sun.
the death of winter will be here before we know it.
& for the record: the smell of you filling up my nose in the blue almost white of morning cannot be compared. remember that. but remember me, too.
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